For some reason I seem to do my deepest pondering in the morning, during my holidays, usually while enjoying my first cup of coffee and my soft-boiled egg. It is a ritual.
I have been pondering my blog today...and 2012. I feel out of sorts - I have been working on my degree for over 10 years and now that it is over I feel kind of empty...exhilarated that the school journey is finished and completed; however, I feel unsettled, restless. I am not certain what to write about on this blog anymore; my life feels a bit disarranged. You know, I keep asking "what does this all mean?" and what is the "this" exactly? Maybe because I am now a half century old, and as my dear mom would say, entering the last half hour on a clock!! I struggle with whether I want to keep up with my blog or go find myself first or something :) I know! I am very lucky that these are the only issues I have in my life!
I am a big proponent of new year goals and I am definitely going to be thinking about mine this weekend. Who knows, maybe 2012 will be my time to determine what I want to enhance or change in my life. Or, maybe I REALLY need to lighten up and run another marathon or something.
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Hello! I, too, graduated this semester and I also feel aimless. I was hoping I would be on my way to a new career, but no, the career to which I aspired is pretty much non-existent in this economy. This will be a big year for me to do some soul searching, too. It's a lot to think about, eh? No pressure at all, ha ha...!
It is that time of year, the time for pondering, your time magnified by your graduation. Enjoy the process. I'll be here pondering, too.
So. I had your website on a sticky note forever so I could go check it out. And I read the first post on your blog ever today and I'm thinking, "what, is this my twin?!" I finally finished up my MS after getting my BS...and it *only* took me 13 years to do it. I, too, feel like I'm floundering. I'm going through the same thoughts regarding blogging. I closed up and deleted my entire blog two years ago, then started up again, but still feel like....is this what I still want to do? And why can't I think of anything to write anymore? I don't know if I want to be part of the fast paced net life anymore. Anyhow, even though I really don't know you or your blog at all, just wanted you to know that I understand the sliver you gave from your heart and do wish you the very best.
I'll be the selfish reader that stands up and who shares a history with you of about, what.. 3 or 4 years.
I know you've been working very hard finishing up your degree and we readers waited patiently, cheering you on. Once major accomplishments have been made, we always feel a bit disconnected because that which was consuming the majority of our life is no longer there.
You are a very creative soul - your knitting, photography and especially your writing... and in turn, your creativity inspires us, your readers. No, a blog should not feel like a chore - it should be a place that is fun and brings you joy. If "raining sheep" no longer brings you joy, while it makes me sad to even think of it, then perhaps you should find a new outlet... or maybe you could simply shift your focus here and we will join you on your next adventure.
Either way - as someone who has tagged along for almost a quarter of a decade - you will always have my support.
Whatever you decide to do in 2012, I know you will do it with style. Happy New Year Raina - I hope you and your loved ones, have a wonderful 2012. Take care :) x
I think we all have phases in our life where we feel like this. You'll work through it and find balance again. Hope you find 2012 brings you that insight or clarity. Happy New Year Raina. Here's to a fabulous one!!
Oh, I do hope you'll continue here Raina. I never got the sense that your blog was about the pursuit of school? Would you continue to take your beautiful photos if you didn't blog?
I'm hoping to do a bit of pondering this week too. So much to think about. Although, sometimes, I'm glad there's not much time to ponder. Wishing you a Happy, Happy New Year Raina. And I, very selfishly, hope you'll continue your presence here -- I love your peaceful, thoughtful posts!
Wishing you a fabulous 2012 in whatever way it manifests - no resolutions for me just pondering on this: http://zenhabits.net/no-goal/
I think that blogs evolve constantly as we evolve. That may mean that a blog doesn't fit in your life anymore or that it is just going to be something completely different. You'll do what feels best for you and we'll all support it.
I felt very similar after getting my doctorate...nothing changed and so it didn't even feel like an accomplishment. Such is the way of life I guess. Here's hoping 2012 is a fabulous year for you...no matter which direction it may lead you.
So nice to find you! I have been blogging forever - 6 years in March I think it will be. I have not yet become a famous writer or designer yet - haha. I work in petrochemicals and as much as I'd like to do something artsy and cultured with my life, the pay is too good to quit. So I keep dragging myself to the office.
Will be nice to catch up on your blog!
xo Terri
The start of a new year is definitely a time for introspection. I've been like that all week, too. I hope 2012 brings you many rewarding things.
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